What a great way to start off 2008 Blog!
I'm in a crappy mood today. I have to give a little history here before I can explain why I'm in such a crappy mood.
I had a miscarriage in December 2007. Granted it wasn't a planned pregnancy, but as time went on I got excited about it. I was really hurt by the miscarriage. Yesterday a friend tells me his wife is expecting. It just crushed me. I'm happy for them, but it just hurts. I have a battle almost daily of wanting to loose weight and wanting to be pregnant.
Part of me really wants to be pregnant now. While hubby and I have agreed to have more children he wants to wait a year or so. I have days that I just don't want to wait, and days that I think to myself...ok it's just a year.
I really want to loose weight. It's just such a fight. I have no support. Hubby likes me the way I am and offers no support on the weight loss front. He even makes jokes about him being on a diet. It really pisses me off, but he doesn't seem to mine.
I just don't know what I want or what to do.
